In restrospect, I have no idea how I thought I could do that and come out on the other end better for it. Probably because I had no perspective on what I was feeling in the first place, seeing as how everything was so distant and intangible. Now I'm just tired and have a multitude of things in my head that I have no will power to think about at the moment. Including some unrelated surprising realizations & new perspectives that I want to consider. Then again, being exhausted tends to skew things.  I'll have to revisit when things sink in more. I'm glad to be back in familiar territory, at least for a recovery period.