so often i find myself wanting so much

chicken. but its also true that i go through food cycles - i want one thing for a month every day. then it changes. recently ive gotten so honest that i may have discarded courteousy. i prefer honesty.

today i went here and it was nice. (i got some owl apparel.) im excited to shop etsy via non-computer screen soon.

thoughts on the opposite sex:
on many occasions i dont care when someone calls - prefer if they take their good ole time. prefer that fine line of being an ass. prefer not being pursued, as it just feels like nagging. but theres a recipe to my affection that requires a casualness mixed with confidence, an independence with a pinch of vulnerability, and a tsp of various other ingredients. its undefined. call it a bubble; call me stubborn. but i didnt order this. i like who i like. (or more often, dont.) and i dont really care much otherwise.

unless im in it. cause then, im in it. its quite unfortunate.
but i feel good.