stream of consciousness:

its thursday morning and i really wish it was friday. work weeks have actually been going by fast: its weird that its already thursday! but im a demanding gal, i need friday. (no, im okay with today just as it is..) ive been here a month and there are days that are frustrating. i desperately want the girls to get a job.. they will be so much happier. so will i. and stand-stills are a bitch. it seems like a lot of my friends are at stand-stills. or, are getting married. hmm. now that i think about it, it really is kinda one or the other. i worry about some people, and am just glad i still have tha capacity to feel like that. others i want with me. some, both. i dont really miss much though - im too removed to understand what im missing. ignorance. i had an embarassing moment yesterday, but was giddy for a few hours afterwards. which transformed into friendliness. because i saw my neighbor on the street and said hey, how are you? then asked, are you just out for a walk? and she said no, shrink appointment. hmmm. oh, ok. (carol, no one just goes for a walk up and down our hill.) anyway. i have this new thing in my life that i cant quite wrap my head around. i think im getting kinda excited about it.. like, im smiling right now. but i may be overdoing it in my head, also. (im sure i am). either way, i feel okay about it. relaxed, and good. but excited. mmm. i do wish i could see sarah. scott has a trial on monday, and its a big one. im tired of typing. have a good day.