owoah it's been awhile. whoopsie doo! the apt is pitch black empty, but with lights, a make-shift bed of cushions, a suitcase, and some typical bathroom necessities. it's oh! so strange. and sad, yes i teared this evening. i'm making this change. but that doesn't mean it's not still a shocker to the system. a big little shocker combined with other losses, confusions, and system shocker changes. bah! not to mention quiet. whew, there's lots of talking to myself involved. i feel a bit bare.