Sometimes I wish my body worked differently with bonding and crushing.

So many people I've gotten stuck on, so involved and in it, but when away from it can just drop all things immediately. And seriously not care at all. Just be over it. It just takes one moment outside to see/feel it. It's scary to think about now with past situations.
But mostly I just wish I could like people and just be in it and that's that. Instead of being so closed judgey judged pusher awayer turned off in a second freako.

But then there are some selects who I just have it with. And that's that.
(And thus I get emotional letting go of such things.)

oh whatever. perhaps I should just hang out by myself.
meeting new people just freaks me out sometime. its too much work and too many feelings and too many strange paths.