Peas in a pod.

I think I'm not friends with people anymore. And I think it's maybe because ihavent tried to be a friend to these people. And I partly think it's because maybe I never let myself be close to them or that I let us not be close anymore. Maybe we never were the same. I know it's because I've changed and I honestly can't remember just how I used to be but I know I'm far away now. From a lot of things. But I like where I am. What I do. The sunshine in the windows. The horrible gust as you turn down a cross street. Change is confusing me with loss. But I don't feel lost or that I've lost. I feel I'm perpetually coming out on top - even on the bad days. Even on the days I feel I've lost more than I gave away and maybe it's because I'm an optimist. And I can't stop loving. Either way. I wish I could see so many people. Just to see what they are like. even if I mean nothing to them.

But anyway. if life is a sport. Then I want to be its champion. ha