out and about.

i think
if i stopped for a moment
and really thought about the things going on
with lisa
i could sit and cry
every day.
just for a moment.

but i dont.
in the mean time....
today sitting on the steps outside waiting, i suddenly felt far away from everyone. didnt really feel like there was one person i was close to. the other day i was walking to work and someone drove by with their music up loud. it made me think about home and how, between walking to get the paper and back to the house, 12 cars would go up the street blazing their music. it was typically 17 year old guys. and then i dont know why, but it dawned on me that this is such an old city. and i think thats why i like it. thirty somethings are having their first child - not 23 year olds. which surrounded me before. it feels nice to be in a place where its okay to be 22 and not have all my shit together.