someone get me out of my head

the train was all messed up on the way home tonight. then there was yelling, and a fight? it was frustrating. but then at one point i was sitting next to these boys who were trying to come up with a cover up story for their parents about the party they werent supposed to be at. their harmless and eager dimeanor comforted me, for some reason. i did go here for a bit before getting stuck amongst the L chaos. other than that i spent alot of the day by myself. i think it would be good to focus my thoughts on the work/school thing i have going on, in lue of the weird things in my head/heart. it will be better for me, i believe. and something i really must do anyway. im not sure what my thing is right now. i do know that i feel young. very, young. in an uncomfortable way. at some point every day. and i ate so many brownies today and it is finally catching up to my stomach in a yuck way.