wonder wheel

i was at anthropologie this afternoon. i went into the little sale nook they have. its cute. but. there were two mom&daughter pairs in there with me. rudely/annoyingly/quite immaturely yelling at eachother/throwing things. but whatever. but then i got in the corner after somehow maneuvering myself around the flailing arms. and i found myself trapped in that corner amidst their judgmental banter. anyway. one girl asked if i was trying to get by. then says to her mother, "mom MOVE over so she can get out of here and there will be less people in our way!" excuse me? so i left. bitch.

otherwise, lovely day. i have moments when i terribly miss spring in michigan. there are these moments i can remember feeling so.. everything. feeling everything good all at once. its easier to be sad that they are gone. to wonder how/if i can feel that again without these people. i try not to do that anymore. the truth is many people/things like that are for those moments, and often only those moments. its better to just live. today. be me. im tired of being around people who think i give them something, but they give me nothing. i want equal give and get. i havent felt that connection in a long time and its itching at me. im ready for a sweet calm within myself that only spring allows.