crazy day today, work was insane. now i cant sleep and im missing d. i feel exhausted. i want a pool house. why am i obsessed with shoes.

last week was a painful marathon but the weekend was very happy. not looking forward to another marathon starting tomorrow.

id love to hang these mirrors on my wall, if only they didnt cost my entire paycheck.

i know im an amateur, but i really enjoy the little bits of event planning i get to do. i find i have the best days when i see an inquiry from beginning to end, and when my clients are so satisfied. it makes me feel good - and its fun! i wish i could do more of that. and i wish i felt appreciated. and i wish people communicated better. i miss summer with porches and back yards.

i've been wanting to get out of the city for the weekend but it just hasn't seemed to work out. everyone has their summer homes, and some even have their winter ski rentals. but i tell ya it's the soon to be spring itch that makes me feel so antsy. i wish this weekend i was in a cute wooden cabin by a fireplace.

as far as flowers go, im not a huge tulip fan. but, no complaints here:

ambivalence (ME)

-able to analyze all sides of an argument/situation
-stronger ability to cope with negative/harmful situations
-often more creative
-erratic in job performance
-recognize negative aspects in relationships and continue to worry about them, as opposed to black and white thinkers who just see one outweighing the other