gonna cook some dinner, put on a movie, and fall asleep. im just a regular old humdrum. tomorrow im going to make the most delicious lemon blueberry marble yum cake. i had a really good weekend.

so many things i want. people keep saying a lot of fancy things. and feeling a lot of fancy feelings. but no one wants to just do it. i might be in my head too much. but im ready for more.

like

A man was crossing the street when the white light said it was his turn to go. A car turning left into him stopped and waited for him to pass. Another car stopped behind that one, honked, and yelled 'move fucker.'

This, my friends, is Manhattan. At least midtown east.

im buying new sunglasses this weekend. they will have clear frames. i wish tomorrow was friday, instead of wednesday. but mostly, i cant complain. my new job is nice.

ive been wearing my hair like this quite frequently. in love.

a lot of simultaneous change is a bit lonely.

one month in and it might be another few months before i can enjoy anything even close to this again.. sigh. tired of the couch.

"If your daily life seems poor, do not blame it; blame yourself that you are not poet enough to call forth its riches; for the Creator, there is no poverty."
- Rilke Maria Rainer

i like that.

SUMMER

in the city.

want

i can't believe it's july!
a big handful of things have been changing in my life, just over the last week. i got a new job and put in my 2 weeks. i ended my current relationship. and i have the dreaded horrible never ending bed bugs partnered with an unresponsive and apathetic landlord, which is an utter nightmare in every possible way.

yes, i feel like a new person in transition.