i took part of the sun home with me from long beach today.
(mostly on my eyelids.)

if the reason ive felt most alone and undeserving of love or even time and attention in general did not originally begin with you, you certainly made sure to carry it forward.

yet in this moment you showed more concern and love in just a phone call than ive felt in months.
i guess, thank you. im not sure you can ever fully understand your affect on me.

something i love

"But if you're from Cleveland, you are conditioned to expect the worst and then wonder if you're being too optimistic"

-in reference to sports, but can also perhaps be applied to other things.
(weather)
and so on. the mindset is a contagious lifestyle.

this weekend. exhausted.

i'd like to hang out, except not at the expense of you casting a spell on me.

saturday night!

being semi-involved with someone, and then backing out. its really not so bad - not really so hard at all. i think im pro going half way and then u-turning it. because im positively horrid at deciding without experiencing, and i trust my gut's apprehensions.