strong beneath the fold

of all that flies.

today is my absolute favorite weather. upper 50s, overcast. light breeze. (i dont like people who dont understand that.) ive never had someone look at me so strangely before like i did today - upon saying so. oh well.

im planning to change directions slightly in my life. after thinking about the things i like, no matter how much i think im not good enough, i owe myself to try. rather than wander about doing otherwise. its something im not used to doing. but here it goes.

duermete

lately ive been wandering around
looking for my up and down

the inside of my head is trails of those leafless branching trees. ive been walking around there for awhile. really, its strange. im not sad. i just dont know, anything. im nothing, but mostly everything. and i cant get why i cant see that in others.

in that funk.

there is this one thing on my mind. all weekend. and it scares me. and my head is nall wrapped up in it lately. and its made me aware how i havent been talking to people about things.

and theres this other thing. that im only thinking about perchance the spirits. that i hope to only think about in such situations. because i cant think about it more than that right now. but which i just want here now.

that is all. and my allergies! such agrivation.