babe when i saw you turning at the end of the street

i knew a time was gone.

funn yday. no?
i should really finish painting my room. perhaps some museums this weekend? and fifth element. and sunshine.

dont want those pants to get wet.

myself

i tried to build a shelf today. with wood and hammers. i like it. massages are weird. its my first time by myself at home all night in months. hmm. im gonna nail some things in the wall and drink some things. and lay on my floor. our ice cream man plays christmas music. thats about it.
yep.

treehouses and wreckage.

i have so much oomf this morning - personally speaking. oomf to come back to me, to who i am. oomf to make things, to explore. to rid of wreckage. to see more. its a shame theres no place for that today. at least not for a lot of hours. its all just a shame.

daycation?

wedding dresses

i miss my mom. & dad. & sister & sarah. & anna & ashley. & gina. & megan. & heidi! & shannon & mike & tyler & stephen & tyson. & chris. & kate & kate & katie & mk and how do you miss so many people and why must this happen i need to get married so all my friends can be in one place. i also need a library card, lumber, and to fall asleep. and giant shape sponges?

maybe a good mountain hike.

i miss anna

more than anyones.














thats not anna. but it is a really cool dog i saw the other day in battery park. 4th of july was very nice. things are well. the lovely weather really picks me up. so does a good night out - and i had a couple of good ones as of late. im in the midst of painting my room. its annoying. but feels good. summer in the city is all flowers and zippers.

deja vu

how far is too far? is the existence of boundaries only there to keep us feeling comfortable, safe? there must be a point at which something dangerous becomes deadly but who can judge. all i know is now. and now im feeling uneasy. i think its because ive been accidently swallowing those teeny tiny beetles in my sleep. lets take a day to work them off. unresponsiveness as our cuisine.

the concern fled to younger, naive victims - we are of no use to him anymore. or have we kicked him out? sent him off with all close possessions. no one takes risks without some hope of redemption, even if its unknown. i have to believe enough circular motion causes a break - off or even, no one knows. but, baneful or not, im of the hopeful kind.

virtuoso

as tall as lions. great. excellent. lovely.experience it.
very good night. fun happy warm.

there is cat hair in weird places and i hate it. im sorry i just dont know what to write. im so tired. i feel weird. far away from what i used to know. deep in the unknown. its alright though. i like this right now. in the mix. i would like to put out an ad for people who want to be my friend. please reply however you find necessary.